Why me? I want, I am hungry, You win.

He is. He was. He sets his throan’s exsistance upon ‘will always be’ love inside him or his children who believes and follows, having him live inside, by simply accepting all he is.
I must confess that when I started this web-site I had much to say to any and all, but now I have nothing. What I have shared in a trip of miracles was not flesh but spirit. Not me as I was. As a kid I gave my heart many an ulter call. I was no clean follower then.
A.W.Tozer wrote “the more I am walking in this way the less I know anything at all”.
This is uncharted territory. It’s likened to a walking into a light world . First thoughts are, to take off my shoes. Ah. . … no for I see I have no shoes on. Then do I cry that I am unworthy being here? Ah I have no tears (for all my tears were collected by HIM, my Lord my god.
Let me back up, way back. I was in California about “89”. I had a good job out in Indio, but living in Redlands. I really had it well in hand, but not with God’s approval. Carpentry on homes had me at an end. Yet I thought I was ok. Driving against the sun, I was told in recovery 3days later, I was driving 70miles an hour, crashing into a semi-truck. One leg broken (repaired), jaw smashed (healed), and no more job.
It turned out my mother waited on me head and foot. Dad was still working then and my life turned. … a man in society, now to have reality check. I owed mother and father my life. But they soon had me taking care of them 10years later.
I cared not what life the world had for me, riches or fame in any form. I found dieing to self was what god had for me.
Friends, ex-wife, and unknown future. (Abraham’s journey in Genesis , from his home just to live differently than any other he had ever known).
In the next 20 years I went from CAREGIVER, to carpenter, night watchman, farming ( a man I never knew gave me 2days, and I stayed 2years ), I served as a helper roaming around with little money 2years, observing a silent companion tutoring me about this new life. I was called back to a farm where the farmer became a close brother. But he ended up sending me away.
I wet to camp meeting for a summer, when I was urged by a mother to stay with them. And each time I was urged to leave a hand opened up another door.
Now with a job, apartment, and a flock of friends, I am learning “what was this god, companion, teacher, and friend trying to say to me”?
One day , out of the blue , this man called about creating a web-site. I usually turned any of them away. But I was tugged by a friendly notion “it is I”.
Dieing to self still in progress, yet in time, this site was a story time for others looking and waiting to have this relationship too with my friend. Our friend.

So, where am I, say, where is this place? Is this where Moses stood by the bush. Is this where Jerimiah, David, Daniel, Peter, Paul or is it my turn. Is this end of time on earth to be visited by HIM. ( 1,2 Thessalonians ), clouds with ten thousands times ten thousands angels and whom ever, from heaven. And you think that the father (jesus’s Father) would be there too ?

Now, reader, my question is this. ‘What if , what options could there be in the future that as prophecy’s come true as they all has to now. What other plans should we , as humans , make in our lives than to surrender to this GOD who said to John (1st John 1,2,3.) we are different than the world. … Meek, Humble, servant, willing to wash one another’s feet. Bare one another’s burdens, pray without quitting, rest in him.
This life is garrenteed to end. Suffering is part of the load. Jobe in Old Testament, It is by not quitting on faith in him. Even when you end up alone. He will over shadow you to keep you. The evil one wants to creat fear. DO NOT LET HIM WIM. … God’s voice is soft, true, same = never changes, and he wants to welcome you as one with him.
Another thing I am learning. As I go day to day. I say “ I see, says the blind man. You lead, I follow. My thoughts and actions must show that I am yours. The people I have in my life , the style I am use to have with them must always be improving by thy only power.
Why? Why indeed ? Eternal life is beyond me, or anyone ever. It was an invitation once. Now it’s a plea. To say GOD woows us, is so far from how it is. He nurtures the growth of our hearts. But one day he will be silent. No more pleadings.
The end of revelation has him win. We will be home.
Night night !

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